Hey everyone, I finally moved on over to my new domain:

Just-Pretend.org Go check it out!!

I’ve been trying to get my domain set up for a couple of days now, and now my head hurts more than ever. I didn’t realize that I’d forgotten as much as I have. I remember the html, just not anything else. I can’t get my site to show up, though it says my DNS and such is set up correctly. I can’t figure out how to work the whole wordpress thing. Fantastico set it up, but where to go from there? It’s causing a headache. I’m about to give up!!!

have you ever been in such a bad mood and had no reason for it? everything just pisses you off to no end. every little thing.

that’s what’s going on today. i know it’s thanksgiving, and maybe that’s why i’m in such a bad mood. my family used to get together every year.. all of us, at my grandma’s for all holidays. ever since my grandparents moved away, everyone fights over where things are going to be. then those whose homes are not chosen sulk and blah. well finally my aunt decided that thanksgiving was at her house because she was sick of no one coming to her house-even though she’s had a small one bedroom trailor all her life where no one will fit in. well she’s now renting a house, so that’s fine, except we can’t go. rob can’t be more than a half hour away from town while he’s on mandatory, which he is right now. they live an hour and a half away. my mom is working, so she’s not having anything. i completely planned on making a dinner for rob and myself, and if my sister wanted to stop by.

everyone said it was dumb. why waste your time? mom’s having a dinner tomorrow. it’s just the two of you. “come to my mom’s house” my sister in law said, “you’re welcome there, we’ll eat together there”. so all day, rob and i sit at home, by ourselves, doing nothing on thanksgiving -except watching a Keeping up with the Kardashian’s marathon. waiting. waiting for my sister in law and them to get to her mom’s house, because they went to my aunt’s house first. waiting. she say 4 pm, the latest. 4 pm rolls around. 4:30. 5:00. now i’m just in a bad mood, because i could have just made a dinner for us. we are our own little family. i shouldn’t have listened. now it’s 5:15 and she calls. “why aren’t you at my mom’s??” um,m.. because we’re not just going to show up by ourselves. then she has the nerve to ask why rob sounds upset. umm.. because we’re starving, and because you are over an hour late, but it doesn’t matter to you because you’ve already eaten. i should have just made my own damn dinner like i originally wanted to…especially because it’s 5:57 and they have yet to call and tell us that they’ve made it to her mom’s and to come on over. i’m over it.

so now i’m in a bad mood. rob and i are fighting because i’m in a bad mood, and being in a bad mood makes me say all of the things that i think. i’m ready to go to bed, seriously. i’m in THAT bad of a mood. i just want this day over, so i don’t feel so depressed, and so alone.

happy thanksgiving everyone, i hope yours has been better than mine.

Like most of America, I have been sooo sick for the past two weeks. Every time I think I’m getting better, I feel worse later or the next day. I’ve been taking Tylenol cold like it’s my religion, and usually it works wonders. It’s been semi-working lately. I don’t know if I’m gaining immunity to it or if this cold is just so bad that it requires a prescription. I’m really trying my hardest to fight it off, because we just don’t have the extra $30.00 to spend on the doctor visit right now, especially if it’s something that I just have to let run it’s course, ugh

Runny nose, then stuffed up nose. Phlegm that won’t come up. Sore throat. Sneezing, Weezing Cough, fever here and there.. all causing my chest to hurt any time I even breathe. Anyone else have the same thing as me? What did you do? Seems like while everyone else is sick, no one has the same symptoms as me.

It’s taking everything I hate out of me, I don’t even want to get out of bed. Even showering didn’t help. Gross.

Well hello there stranger.

I know, I know, it’s been far too long. I’ve missed you too.

You see, immediately after the wedding and last post, Rob and I moved into our first home (pictures to come eventually!). With walls we could paint. No apartment white anymore. So we went crazy. Two tones of brown in the living room, purple in the guest room, teal and brown in our room, soft yellow in the office (with baby dust permitting would be a nursery one day). Get back, hmmm, office walls don’t look right. It looks like the paint didn’t stick? Repaint office. Come back. Lather, rinse, repeat. What the hell? So we prime the walls, thinking maybe it was the primer. Primer doesn’t stick. Finally find a primer to work, the guy at Home Depot told us that if it didn’t work we might as well wallpaper because nothing will-hah. Get more paint, repaint. Too soft, repaint again. FINALLY, a week ago, the office was ready. We got to move our stuff in, and in turn, get the internet. I felt naked without it.

We’ve settled in to having our own home, and consequently, I have become disgustingly addicted to HGTV. Is this normal?! Haha. I already have plans for an outdoor bar/grill area behind the garage where our firepit is. I learned how to make it, with a custom tiled table top of course. I retiled the bathroom (by myself while Rob was sleeping), and now have plans for the remodeling of every room in the house (starting with the floors and the kitchen!), and the addition we’re adding in 5-10 years. HAHAHA. What the? We just moved in a few months ago. I need help! Now when I talk to Rob and the story starts out, “I was watching HGTV…”, he stops listening. Oops! :X At least we don’t have the money to do anything, or else this house would be in pieces!

Here I go again, blogging for relief, blogging to vent, blogging to get everything off my mind, and share my stories with others; the good and bad. My life is nowhere near perfect, neither am I. Sometimes I make sense, sometimes I don’t. I ramble often, sort of a nervous habit. I tell things like it is, I have strong convictions-yet am very open minded. This is a huge step for me, opening up my life. That’s part of why I stopped before, didn’t want others to find out, or judge me. But guess what, I’m done and over that. I’m just me – love me or hate me, you can at least give me that. I hope you can sit back, relax, sometimes even relate when you come here. Feel free to look around, move things, look in my medicine cabinet, anything you can that will make you feel welcome. Come on now, we all do it!!