It seems like EVERYWHERE anyone looks, there are loads of pregnant women. I mean, they are literally everywhere. My mom seems to think it’s because there are more people my age, that I know, that are becoming pregnant. That’s why I notice it more. Who knows.

All I know is that it makes things so much harder for me. With this stupid PCOS, I worry that I will never have babies. There are so many things you can do and try, but I know it’s going to be a long hard road. We’ve been “not-trying” (ie: not saying we’re trying, but not trying to prevent anything) for awhile, with no “accidents”. There were a couple times I thought that FOR SURE I was pregnant, had every symptom there was. Rob even noticed these symptoms before I said anything, yet low and behold, no positive test. I’ve only touched the tip of the iceberg and even though I want babies more than anything, it’s hard to think about trying. About actually saying that we’re “trying”. Because then we have to face the fact that there is a problem, we can’t blame it on the fact that we haven’t been “trying”, so no big deal. I think having the face that fact is the hardest thing to do.

I just become so envious when I see this blog or that blog, or hear this person or that, talk about their babies. About the preggo belly, about the symptoms, about how great it is to be a mommy. I can’t wait for all of that. I will be one of those weirdos that enjoy morning sickness, that enjoy backaches, and all of the weird stuff that happens when you’re pregnant. haha. I’m going to be the person talking to my belly, and putting headphones around it so baby can hear some nice music..haha. But when will it be my turn? I know that when it’s meant to be, it will be..but it’s hard to sit back and wait for it to be meant to be.

Everyone keeps saying that it must be something in the water, that’s why everyone in the world is pregnant. All I can do, I guess is continue to drink the water and hope for the best.