have you ever been in such a bad mood and had no reason for it? everything just pisses you off to no end. every little thing.
that’s what’s going on today. i know it’s thanksgiving, and maybe that’s why i’m in such a bad mood. my family used to get together every year.. all of us, at my grandma’s for all holidays. ever since my grandparents moved away, everyone fights over where things are going to be. then those whose homes are not chosen sulk and blah. well finally my aunt decided that thanksgiving was at her house because she was sick of no one coming to her house-even though she’s had a small one bedroom trailor all her life where no one will fit in. well she’s now renting a house, so that’s fine, except we can’t go. rob can’t be more than a half hour away from town while he’s on mandatory, which he is right now. they live an hour and a half away. my mom is working, so she’s not having anything. i completely planned on making a dinner for rob and myself, and if my sister wanted to stop by.
everyone said it was dumb. why waste your time? mom’s having a dinner tomorrow. it’s just the two of you. “come to my mom’s house” my sister in law said, “you’re welcome there, we’ll eat together there”. so all day, rob and i sit at home, by ourselves, doing nothing on thanksgiving -except watching a Keeping up with the Kardashian’s marathon. waiting. waiting for my sister in law and them to get to her mom’s house, because they went to my aunt’s house first. waiting. she say 4 pm, the latest. 4 pm rolls around. 4:30. 5:00. now i’m just in a bad mood, because i could have just made a dinner for us. we are our own little family. i shouldn’t have listened. now it’s 5:15 and she calls. “why aren’t you at my mom’s??” um,m.. because we’re not just going to show up by ourselves. then she has the nerve to ask why rob sounds upset. umm.. because we’re starving, and because you are over an hour late, but it doesn’t matter to you because you’ve already eaten. i should have just made my own damn dinner like i originally wanted to…especially because it’s 5:57 and they have yet to call and tell us that they’ve made it to her mom’s and to come on over. i’m over it.
so now i’m in a bad mood. rob and i are fighting because i’m in a bad mood, and being in a bad mood makes me say all of the things that i think. i’m ready to go to bed, seriously. i’m in THAT bad of a mood. i just want this day over, so i don’t feel so depressed, and so alone.
happy thanksgiving everyone, i hope yours has been better than mine.
