MOVED! just-pretend.org

Hey everyone, I finally moved on over to my new domain:

Just-Pretend.org Go check it out!!

no sleep

Okay, so this will probably be one of the most random posts ever, but:

for those of you living/sleeping with your significant other of choice, what drives you nuts? Because right now, it is 4:57 am, and Andrea is wide awake. Why am I wide awake you ask? Because Rob thinks that it is perfectly acceptable to flop around like a fish out of water when he gets uncomfortable, and then in the process, lands halfway on top of me and passes back out, or kicks me while asleep, or decides that I am insane for getting mad that he has landed on top of me for the 4345345 time. Wtf? I understand that you are asleep buddy, believe me, I do, but it’s getting ridiculous. I can guarentee I will have some bruises tomorrow. Pretty soon he’s going to be rolled into the floor!!

Edit Hello to everyone that’s coming over from AlphaInventions.com. I’m not sure how I got added, but I’m glad you’re here. Introduce yourself, tell me a thing or two about you! Stick around for awhile, I promise things will get more interesting in time.

Edit 2: New layout, since I’m up. It’s still a free one from wordpress.com, but once my domain is up (hopefully in the next couple of days!!), I’ll start making my own. Now I’m off to bed, to try to sleep again. Wish me luck!

confused.

I’ve been trying to get my domain set up for a couple of days now, and now my head hurts more than ever. I didn’t realize that I’d forgotten as much as I have. I remember the html, just not anything else. I can’t get my site to show up, though it says my DNS and such is set up correctly. I can’t figure out how to work the whole wordpress thing. Fantastico set it up, but where to go from there? It’s causing a headache. I’m about to give up!!!

boring life

Oh man, I’m slacking. It’s not because I’m lazy, really. I’ve just been a bit a bore. I’ve been doing nothing, seriously. It’s sad, really.

My aunt had a baby on the 1st, so we went over there this weekend to visit with her and her family, and because my grandparents were in town, my grandma made her lasagna. That was the highlight of the past week. Seriously. I told you it was sad! haha.

Anyways, anything new in my life? Not really. I desperately want this job I found online. It’s working at a daycare in the infant/toddler rooms. I’ve never wanted a job more in my life! The posting says to call Monday, Tuesday, or Thursday between 11-1:30. I woke up at 1:40pm (didn’t fall asleep until 5 am!). I was so mad, I purposely set the alarm clock to wake up and for some odd reason, Rob decided to bring the alarm clock with him out of the room. Wtf? Hopefully when I call on Thursday the position isn’t filled. I’m trying to live by the mantra that if it’s meant to be it will be, but damnit, I REALLY want this job!!

Other than that, not much going on. Rob’s sister keeps trying to talk him into going to dinner with her. He refuses to go, yet she keeps calling. He says she’s the type of jerk that while offer to drive and when they shop up, his sperm donor will be sitting at the table, hence the reason he won’t go. I’m sure she’s blaming it on me. *eye roll*

dreams

well first and foremost, i won a free domain name at the Namecheap twitter contest. All I’ll have to do is pay hosting, and this baby will be on her way to a domain to be named later

Second, I thought I’d share a funny story. While catnapping, I had a dream about Rob’s parents. In my dream, I ran into them while shopping. They walked up to me, and stopped in front of me, like they were going to talk to me. I opened my mouth to speak, but I was so mad that it literally came out as a scream of RHABERH..yeah..gibberish.

Then I woke up…haha. I’ve thought many times what I would say if I actually ran into them. There have been so many ideas running through my head, but to be honest, what happened in my dream would probably happen in real life too.

I guess I should get some real sleep and be sleeping by the time Rob wakes up for work, you think?

It can only get better from here.

Thanksgiving ended up being better after we left for my sister-in-law’s mom’s house, does that make sense? haha. Friday, another story. To sum it up, our debit card number got stolen. They wiped out our entire bank account, due to the fact that we had just transferred money over so that the mortgage and other bills would get paid. ALL of it was gone. The bank was giving us the run around, but it looks as if we will get all of our money back tomorrow. Someone had a nice Black Friday shopping spree at Best Buy and Walmart. *le sigh* They haven’t caught who it was, but hopefully they will soon! The past week has been full of many tears, stomach aches, headaches, and stress. Looks like it will hopefully turn out for the best.

Now on to my next issue: Rob’s parents. AGAIN. I need some advice, from anyone who may be reading this. Rob’s birthday was the 23rd, as you may have read. Rob gets a call from his brother to say Happy Birthday, and then turns around to tell him that his parents put a card in our mailbox. Number one, we never told them where we live, but his dad is a cop in the town, so I guess they could have found out. Number two, I was up ALL night and we were home ALL day, so when did they put it in there? Of course, as usual, after they were mentioned, Rob got in a pissy mood. He headed up to the shower, yelling at me the entire way up for God knows what, and was in the bathroom for over an hour. I’m SICK of it. I’m sick of the fact that they won’t go away. That they think that what they did with our wedding was okay, because there is NOTHING that would have justified them not coming to our wedding. Yet, they won’t go away. They keep re-appearing, making Rob more upset every time. Then every time, he takes it out on me. I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I told him that if he really wants things done with them, that he needs to tell them. Whether he calls and leaves a message on the answering machine, or writes a letter and sticks it in their mailbox, he has to do SOMETHING. Because obviously they don’t get the hint. And it’s not fair to him, or me. He opened the card and it was signed, xoxo love always mom and dad. ARE YOU KIDDING ME PEOPLE?! If you loved your son so much, you’d show up at his wedding, or maybe that’s just what normal people do? Anyways, it’s been a week and still Rob has done nothing. I didn’t want to bug him because then he gets crabby.. but I can promise you there will be a card or present in our mailbox Christmas Day if he does nothing, and then the cycle will repeat itself. I’m about to force him to either chose to write the letter or deal with the fact that they’re not going away and quit being a jerk to me. Am I wrong to want this? I’m at my wits end!

bah humbug.

have you ever been in such a bad mood and had no reason for it? everything just pisses you off to no end. every little thing.

that’s what’s going on today. i know it’s thanksgiving, and maybe that’s why i’m in such a bad mood. my family used to get together every year.. all of us, at my grandma’s for all holidays. ever since my grandparents moved away, everyone fights over where things are going to be. then those whose homes are not chosen sulk and blah. well finally my aunt decided that thanksgiving was at her house because she was sick of no one coming to her house-even though she’s had a small one bedroom trailor all her life where no one will fit in. well she’s now renting a house, so that’s fine, except we can’t go. rob can’t be more than a half hour away from town while he’s on mandatory, which he is right now. they live an hour and a half away. my mom is working, so she’s not having anything. i completely planned on making a dinner for rob and myself, and if my sister wanted to stop by.

everyone said it was dumb. why waste your time? mom’s having a dinner tomorrow. it’s just the two of you. “come to my mom’s house” my sister in law said, “you’re welcome there, we’ll eat together there”. so all day, rob and i sit at home, by ourselves, doing nothing on thanksgiving -except watching a Keeping up with the Kardashian’s marathon. waiting. waiting for my sister in law and them to get to her mom’s house, because they went to my aunt’s house first. waiting. she say 4 pm, the latest. 4 pm rolls around. 4:30. 5:00. now i’m just in a bad mood, because i could have just made a dinner for us. we are our own little family. i shouldn’t have listened. now it’s 5:15 and she calls. “why aren’t you at my mom’s??” um,m.. because we’re not just going to show up by ourselves. then she has the nerve to ask why rob sounds upset. umm.. because we’re starving, and because you are over an hour late, but it doesn’t matter to you because you’ve already eaten. i should have just made my own damn dinner like i originally wanted to…especially because it’s 5:57 and they have yet to call and tell us that they’ve made it to her mom’s and to come on over. i’m over it.

so now i’m in a bad mood. rob and i are fighting because i’m in a bad mood, and being in a bad mood makes me say all of the things that i think. i’m ready to go to bed, seriously. i’m in THAT bad of a mood. i just want this day over, so i don’t feel so depressed, and so alone.

happy thanksgiving everyone, i hope yours has been better than mine.

okay, i’m over it.

I am SOOO over being sick. This is ridiculous. It is taking everything out of me. I’ve literally been in bed, fast asleep, by 9:30pm..haha. I usually have really bad insomnia, so you know this is serious business..haha. I know what you all are thinking, uhh.. go to the doctor? I know, I know. I just keep convincing myself that it will go away on its own, and why waste $30? $30 could be some groceries, or household products that we need, or who knows, but why waste it? I’m so cheap, I guess. Cheap, or poor? Both. Anyways, any time I think of going to the doctor, I get better. Then the next day, new symptoms appear. The past two days, it’s been HORRIBLE coughing..to the point where it’s painful..ugh. And exhaustion. Gross.

Sorry, that was completely random. Blame Tylenol cold, heh. Sunday was Rob’s birthday, and I can honestly say that I spent the ENTIRE day in the kitchen. It started out with dishes..you see, we’ve been having a standoff. I was sick of doing EVERYTHING, and Rob promised to do the dishes, so I left them. and left them. and left them. Literally, almost every dish we had was in the sink, he kept promising to do them. Guess who got stuck with them? yeah, me. We had people coming over, I couldn’t just leave them there!! So it was dishes, then I made him a BIG ole breakfast. Homemade banana waffles (which were AMAZING!), bisquits and gravy, sausage, and omelets. It was delicious, only problem? There were only 2 of us and we made waaaay too much. I still have bisquits in my fridge. Then it was more dishes, then on to the pumpkin pies, more dishes, on to the chocolate birthday cake. More dishes. ugh.. I never want to see dishes again! We went to Olive Garden for dinner, and then back home. This is all while I am STILL sick. I was literally in bed and fast asleep by 9:30. What the??

… and how was YOUR weekend?? haha.

Ugh, sick.

Like most of America, I have been sooo sick for the past two weeks. Every time I think I’m getting better, I feel worse later or the next day. I’ve been taking Tylenol cold like it’s my religion, and usually it works wonders. It’s been semi-working lately. I don’t know if I’m gaining immunity to it or if this cold is just so bad that it requires a prescription. I’m really trying my hardest to fight it off, because we just don’t have the extra $30.00 to spend on the doctor visit right now, especially if it’s something that I just have to let run it’s course, ugh

Runny nose, then stuffed up nose. Phlegm that won’t come up. Sore throat. Sneezing, Weezing Cough, fever here and there.. all causing my chest to hurt any time I even breathe. Anyone else have the same thing as me? What did you do? Seems like while everyone else is sick, no one has the same symptoms as me.

It’s taking everything I hate out of me, I don’t even want to get out of bed. Even showering didn’t help. Gross.

What’s in the water?

It seems like EVERYWHERE anyone looks, there are loads of pregnant women. I mean, they are literally everywhere. My mom seems to think it’s because there are more people my age, that I know, that are becoming pregnant. That’s why I notice it more. Who knows.

All I know is that it makes things so much harder for me. With this stupid PCOS, I worry that I will never have babies. There are so many things you can do and try, but I know it’s going to be a long hard road. We’ve been “not-trying” (ie: not saying we’re trying, but not trying to prevent anything) for awhile, with no “accidents”. There were a couple times I thought that FOR SURE I was pregnant, had every symptom there was. Rob even noticed these symptoms before I said anything, yet low and behold, no positive test. I’ve only touched the tip of the iceberg and even though I want babies more than anything, it’s hard to think about trying. About actually saying that we’re “trying”. Because then we have to face the fact that there is a problem, we can’t blame it on the fact that we haven’t been “trying”, so no big deal. I think having the face that fact is the hardest thing to do.

I just become so envious when I see this blog or that blog, or hear this person or that, talk about their babies. About the preggo belly, about the symptoms, about how great it is to be a mommy. I can’t wait for all of that. I will be one of those weirdos that enjoy morning sickness, that enjoy backaches, and all of the weird stuff that happens when you’re pregnant. haha. I’m going to be the person talking to my belly, and putting headphones around it so baby can hear some nice music..haha. But when will it be my turn? I know that when it’s meant to be, it will be..but it’s hard to sit back and wait for it to be meant to be.

Everyone keeps saying that it must be something in the water, that’s why everyone in the world is pregnant. All I can do, I guess is continue to drink the water and hope for the best.